blog-stress

What would you do if 80% of your blog is owned by the companies of your Ph.D. students? First, try to talk them into selling some of their blogshares back to the public. If this fails, threaten never to post on your blog again until the share-price has sunk deep enough to force them into selling. If this fails also and if you see that the price only goes up no matter how long you remain silent, it is time for more drastic measures. Luckily, blogshares allows the owner of a blog to issue new shares, thereby flooding the market and stabilizing the price. I was forced into this twice this week (the two horizontal lines in the diagram) : on monday I issued another 5000 shares dropping their 80% to 40% but today they acquired again 50.1% forcing me into issuing another 1000 shares… Clearly it would be fun if more of you out there would be buying shares of this blog (I will stick to the 1000 shares I got by claiming the blog) but I will keep on issuing new shares whenever one player acquires more than 50%. All of this blogshares-stuff is a bit surrealistic. In less than one week the share-value went from 0.76 to 62.73 and the total value of all public owned shares from 0.00 to 377383.00 and at best I wrote one reasonable post in the same period. Oh, the stress of having to maintain an acceptable level of postings in order to preserve the property of the shareholders of your blog…
As if this is not enough, some bloggers start feeling guilty because they cannot maintain their rhytm of updates in times that they feel sick or tired. Here's what Bitch Ph.D. wrote yesterday

I think I need a break from blogging. Well, actually I need a break from a lot of things, but blogging is optional. Plus, I really just have nothing of substance to say right now. I hate to be all drama-queeny, and fuck, maybe I'll change my mind if the meds kick in tomorrow. Though actually I think they're working in that I still feel shitty and anxious but it's—just—manageable enough for me to function at a sort of minimal level. Or maybe that's a placebo effect. Who the hell knows.

Anyway , the point of this post other than to just say I feel incredibly shitty is to be giving myself public permission to be a shitty blogger for however long it takes until I actually want to talk again.